Mediocre

I thought I was different
But I was wrong,

I thought I can bring change
But I was wrong,

I thought I could stop cries
But I was wrong,

I thought I could change perspectives
But I was wrong,

I thought I was there to help
But I was wrong,

Today I know- I am NOT different from other people
I still fear loneliness, I still suffer from greed,
My needs manipulate my wants
and my journey stops with the sight of selfishness, the lust of unnecessary social norms,

Today I feel I expected a lot from me and I failed
Today I feel mediocre and now i know that no one is different
Today I broke myself, and I freed myself of unrealistic expectations!!! 

Scared

I am so scared
Not from Mortality
Not from Death
Not from Failure
Not from Blood
I am so scared
Not of Gluttony
Not of Sin
Not of Mirth
Not of Hubris
I am so scared
Not of Life
Not of Death
Not of Betrayal
Not to Trust
I am so scared


Scared of God, The things that's unseen
That thing with power, ruining and making lives
Who decides what's right, who decides what's wrong?
It's my life, I should own it but I don't.


As a child my mother forced me to join my hands and pray to that thing in the sky
I still do the same, as habits die hard
I have done nothing wrong , but still I am paying and undeserving
Why should I pray anymore?
Who the hell is up there, why doesn't it show itself


I am scared, if it is there it would punish me.

jibber jabber

With POWER comes the seven deadly SINS: wrath, greed, lust, gluttony, envy, jealousy and hubris. With power comes power to do good, to make a difference and bring change. With power of oneself comes the power to ruin and also the power to recreate.

Its for you to choose what you go for!!!

Destruction though attractive is going to massacre your soul and patience though boring would revive your being. Don't question the good in you, though subconsciously present, get it out for you and not for others. Never be scared to explore yourself for yourself, though be scared of failure, this is the key to prevalence to attaining heights.

A bad situation is not to cry its not all bad, its a recursion to a new lesson and not to recreate again.

Go talk to someone else, you don't know!!! its a surprise how you open up to a person you don't know, as you are not scared of judgement. leave it to destiny, stop controlling the scenario. If you don't, leave it to destiny!!!