A Sense of an Ending

You won’t be having those talks anymore!!

The rub of a skin…. The twitchy eyes…. The small smiles…. The unending laughs…. The small talks… The soft touch on your head…. The kiss on your forehead that says ‘it’s all going to be okay’… the tear drops…. The frustrated shout… the screaming apologies…the coming together at the end!

It sometime feels like an end of an era….

Not seeing those faces not doing those things again leaves a hollow in your heart….It’s like a part of you died and its ashes are stored in a little corner of your heart…

Sometimes in life you meet people you don’t want to let go but you have to….

From the people you meet in life you learn so much….

Being selfish and being selfless…. Finding you passion…. Finding your own voice and learning saying no sometimes is good….

Knowing how people judge you by the things you own and also knowing that material thing don’t make everyone like you…

To know how education doesn't mean knowledge and how the deepest truths of the world can come from the most unlikely person….  

To know how friendship also means unconditional love and also how relationships turn sour with one wrong word and then never taken back…

To know it’s fine to learn things by yourself and to learn from other people’s mistakes too….

You learn how once in a while trusting a stranger can teach you abundance and the best of friends can tear your soul apart….

How you are your best judge and companion, and reaching for help from others will make you go weak…

To know sometimes long lost friend can come to your rescue and teach you self worth….

How sometimes for other people's good you need to be bad and be the culprit….

How sometimes being vulnerable is not so bad… it’s better to make mistakes right now and not cry in the future for not making any mistakes…

To go travel and see places you never saw with your companions eyes and find a whole new world!

Knowing how cooking for someone else can be the high light of your day…

To know how one dance can change your life forever and one word can induce a new life in you…

How sometimes bad words are the best for you… and those sarcastic nice words take you to your death bed…

How LOVE exists in numerous uncountable tangents and that’s what makes the world go round….

It’s funny how a small section of your life makes such an undying impact on you…. That all your life experiences feel short….

This sense of an ending is takes your sleep and make your chest grow apart from your body….

You wish this experience never ended...

But at every moment of your life, with every new person you meet, with everything new thing you eat, with every new place you visit…. You lose yourself and you gain a new self…

This sense of an ending marks a growing change…. and its okay for things to end to mark a new beginning!

Change- The thin line between cowardice and Fear

It just invokes curiosity in me how people change when they get a relationship. You one just completely changes for the greater good of their significant other- even if they turn completely unhappy which eventually backfires and you will get into more fights, more sobs, which you release finally is not worth it.
But!!!! a big but (BUTT) you will still stick to them come what may, in the most vehement way with a never ending confusion in your mind of not how to resolve the problem but if you leave this person with you right now, will you get another in time and will they accept you.

The thin line that called chnage the small babay step we need to take towards happiness is not easy. Th reason behind it??? its our cowardice which we hide in the sense of self pity and we term as being fearful to loose the person. The truth is we just don't want to break the routine we are addicted to. The Industrial Revolution has made our life so monotonous that we have nothing to do in life but to go to office and come back home, on the weekends seeing a movie or roaming around in the mall makes us feel complete which is utter nonsense. This kind of lifestyle has actually ruined our generation and our future is no less then hell, but as we say 'jab tak chalta hai chalate jao'.This is the reason change scares us even if we are unhappy in our current situation.
We are in habit of the same person day in and day out, who is self trained to our likes, dislikes and routines. We are scared of letting a new person in, the questions arises- What is the new person is a weirdo? what if this person is totally different fro me? (hello if the current wasn't you wouldn't be thinking about another person on the first place) What if the person totally dislikes me if he knows the real me? (WOW... this one is a keeper for you have no self esteem). The result of this cowardice is- a) a drawer full on medicines for cold, cough, fever, cervical, migraine pains. b) Washing machine full of dirty towels and hankies of long lasting sobbing and phlegm.
The problem is we ourselves are the one who like to cry and crib and like to be dictated. We our sick of making life decision, we are sick of heading towards a new direction failing and coming back that we left all hope. So when a person tell us to do this and to do that we have a hollow sense of achievement after getting the fake pat on out back.