A Sense of an Ending

You won’t be having those talks anymore!!

The rub of a skin…. The twitchy eyes…. The small smiles…. The unending laughs…. The small talks… The soft touch on your head…. The kiss on your forehead that says ‘it’s all going to be okay’… the tear drops…. The frustrated shout… the screaming apologies…the coming together at the end!

It sometime feels like an end of an era….

Not seeing those faces not doing those things again leaves a hollow in your heart….It’s like a part of you died and its ashes are stored in a little corner of your heart…

Sometimes in life you meet people you don’t want to let go but you have to….

From the people you meet in life you learn so much….

Being selfish and being selfless…. Finding you passion…. Finding your own voice and learning saying no sometimes is good….

Knowing how people judge you by the things you own and also knowing that material thing don’t make everyone like you…

To know how education doesn't mean knowledge and how the deepest truths of the world can come from the most unlikely person….  

To know how friendship also means unconditional love and also how relationships turn sour with one wrong word and then never taken back…

To know it’s fine to learn things by yourself and to learn from other people’s mistakes too….

You learn how once in a while trusting a stranger can teach you abundance and the best of friends can tear your soul apart….

How you are your best judge and companion, and reaching for help from others will make you go weak…

To know sometimes long lost friend can come to your rescue and teach you self worth….

How sometimes for other people's good you need to be bad and be the culprit….

How sometimes being vulnerable is not so bad… it’s better to make mistakes right now and not cry in the future for not making any mistakes…

To go travel and see places you never saw with your companions eyes and find a whole new world!

Knowing how cooking for someone else can be the high light of your day…

To know how one dance can change your life forever and one word can induce a new life in you…

How sometimes bad words are the best for you… and those sarcastic nice words take you to your death bed…

How LOVE exists in numerous uncountable tangents and that’s what makes the world go round….

It’s funny how a small section of your life makes such an undying impact on you…. That all your life experiences feel short….

This sense of an ending is takes your sleep and make your chest grow apart from your body….

You wish this experience never ended...

But at every moment of your life, with every new person you meet, with everything new thing you eat, with every new place you visit…. You lose yourself and you gain a new self…

This sense of an ending marks a growing change…. and its okay for things to end to mark a new beginning!

'SWEET NOTHING'

I stumbled upon a song while a random song search, it was surely a sweet surprise. I am not big a fan of both the artists Calvin Harris and Florence Welch, but their single 'Sweet Nothing' is surely something. But this time we will take a totally opposite route to understand a broken heart. Its about not the person whose heart gets broken its about the dilemma and pain of the person who brakes the heart (the culprit in many eyes).

A breakup is so easy for the person who gets dumped, its like 'Oh!! chuck it s/he is unlucky not to have me. Whats my fault they were demanding and they didn't like me; I wasn't the one who dumped them. I am the nice person here.' They get all the sympathy and the one who dumps take all the toll and half the people don't know why the dumper took that decision, and maybe the dumper was right this time.

'Sweet Nothing' describes the hollowness and the pain of the so called dumper. Well dumper is a relatively new term so please recognize it as the one who dumps their signification other and the dumped not used as a action word is also used as describing the dumped significant other.

Sweet nothing is the term used for the most bitter taste in the world. When the dumper dumps the dumped, it may seem that they did it for the better or they were happy making that decision. This is an absolutely wrong thing to say!!! The dumper is always in the dilemma if s/he made the right decisions. The past passions haunt the dumper and sometimes the good does get heavier then the bad. Then What??? Can the dumper go back but they can't. The sweet nothing implies that the dumper dumped for the better, but the dumper doesn't know what they are actually feeling. They are sad and they don't trust anyone. They can't tell anyone how they feel because no one sees them as a victim and always treat them as the one who betrayed. 
These thoughts suffocates you much, you feel like your heart is chewed by a roaring bear, trying to pound out even a seconds heart beat left in it. With these 5 words that said 'we can't be together anymore' the dumpers life comes to an end. It makes you feel hollow with whispers my fragments of your soul saying you are making this decision wrong and fast. With such a trauma even atheist would start praying to an element in the periodical table like to Lord Manganese. Putting your faith on something someone unknown helps you not to blame yourself, for felling that nothingness that embodies your eyes. It becomes hard to learn from your mistakes and it becomes harder to love again. The dumped doesn't put any blame on him/herself so its easy for them to move one while the dumper sulks in its own glory, ego, decision and wants.

For the dumper its tougher to let things go and not the dumped. The dumper takes in all the abuses, curses and blames of the dumped- thinking that its their fault and not the dumped. This makes them feel more chocked and insecure. This makes them feel hung as they haven't taken out their true feelings. This feeling of being in a cage of thoughts eats away their heart. The dumpers heart is always empty, un-learned, not understood and hence in more pain.

This songs goes to all the people on the other side of the relationship. Enjoy the song!!

Listen To?

Have you ever felt that people are trying to live your life for you?

Dictate you actions,

See your steps as immature,

Judge your decisions,

They can be genuinely concerned but its harsh to see that you can’t live your life on your own terms sometimes.

Telling you!!

Who to meet, who to talk, who to love, who to hate, what to do, what’s the barriers, what’s the limit and sometimes tell you who the hell are you??

Listening to them, abiding to them- you feel at the back of your mind  that what you are trying to do is not wrong either!!

It’s beautiful and you want to take that step ahead but still you control but your coming days are doomed in frustration.

World is not a pretty place, please keep your guards up but still open the gates to fool people.

This hypocrisy is what I don’t understand. Over protective you are to tell you care but still you want your work to be done.

‘Convenience’ id the word that matters in today’s world not lover.

 I respect you but your caution for me disgusts me and the anger pours like boiling lava,

I am traumatized not doing what I want to not saying what I feel like, humanity is created another Frankenstein and I say NO to succumb to it.

I am suffocated and I am party dead!