The Easy Way Out

My dreams seem to shatter away,

Where ever I see is compromise,

People telling me to re-start, re-think, re-do and re-live.

What about me? I don’t know the answer myself,

What I know I am tired, confused and in-between the path of giving up.

The rage and frustration is creating a black whole within me,

The never ending pain

The never ending hollow

The never ending unanswered questions.

Why is this? We ask but we never get,

I am trying to get back on track but past still haunts me.

I want to see me in the eye and say it’s possible,

But I am tired and scared of my recurring failures.

I know it’s a part of life, but why why me?

I also know everyone asks the same questions,

But self pity and filth is what makes the doomsday come near.

Rain!

Old towns can be so much more chaotic then big cities

The crammed streets, the noisy kids

The evening end snipe of the mosque

The pigs hounding on each other in the open cans of loathing fragrance.

As dusk dawns on us, it all comes to silence

And on the roof top while laying down, seeing stars

You feel a droplet on your cheek.

God is crying, seeing what the human kind has made itself

The water poured for us to clean our sins and be awake as new.

The sky line is heavenly

One side the orange clouds with the inflating sun

Just opposite to it we see the moon peeking from behind the blue clouds

I have never seen anything like this before

I am feeling cold and so I cress myself

But the feeling goes and as I open my arms again

It’s like I am hugging life, the true nature of our existence

Rain is the way god blesses us.

I am surrounded by so much concrete

Still I feel I can see past everything, the rain has washed all my inhibitions

Beyond the horizon I see a cloud grumbling

Trying to pour what’s in it, so much like you and me

Ready to burst but not able to

The thoughts keep on mounting and we diminish from within

As I repose again on the floor facing the sky

The drops falling on my body, making me feel I am still in a womb

Free of all tension, not answerable to anyone!!

jibber jabber

With POWER comes the seven deadly SINS: wrath, greed, lust, gluttony, envy, jealousy and hubris. With power comes power to do good, to make a difference and bring change. With power of oneself comes the power to ruin and also the power to recreate.

Its for you to choose what you go for!!!

Destruction though attractive is going to massacre your soul and patience though boring would revive your being. Don't question the good in you, though subconsciously present, get it out for you and not for others. Never be scared to explore yourself for yourself, though be scared of failure, this is the key to prevalence to attaining heights.

A bad situation is not to cry its not all bad, its a recursion to a new lesson and not to recreate again.

Go talk to someone else, you don't know!!! its a surprise how you open up to a person you don't know, as you are not scared of judgement. leave it to destiny, stop controlling the scenario. If you don't, leave it to destiny!!!

Where are we headed???

There is nothing left that inspires me anymore
Where ever I look I see people shackled by believes of urban reality.
Where is the inspiration as it was in the past centuries?
Wordsworth’s reality in nature
Arnold’s mused on the suffering and on the loss of a loved one
Eliot mourning towards the wasteland when the world wars struck.

What are we waiting for in the 21st century the new millennium?
Are we waiting for another world war or eternal destruction?
Or are we waiting for the son of the trinity to descent upon earth and save us again?
It’s a myth don’t count upon it!
It’s weird how insanity rules one’s mind
We see nature we see calm seas we see greenery, yea it all exists
But still we cater our imagination to drugs, sex, alcohol and nirvana

What is nirvana I ask?
Believe me there is nothing like it that exists, the salvation for Carpe diem
John Calvin was surely an intelligent man
He believed there is nothing like salvation that exists on earth, only Eden has it
And we being human are forced by god to sin and if we don’t we die
We have no choice!!

It’s such a drudgery seeing people fight seeing people living lives in a robotic motion
I am no different.
A job, a salary, a movie, a dinner. Where is our life?
The answer is moving around malls and expensive clothing.
Is this that we should live for, ask yourself?
It was so much better a thousand year back when men and women were together
No rules no boundations NO ROLES!!!
We meditated, we fell in love, we forgave, we danced, we contemplate
We had no regrets no hate no feeling for revenge
It’s like we are de-civilizing ourselves with time!!

The question is not where is life taking us? The question is where are we talking our lives, where is the world taking us?
Into nothingness into false believes of riches and into believing that urbanization and money is the cure to every problem.

By repeatedly saying it and may be believing it, it’s still a false idea and not the truth.

Soliloquy

I question you and I question myself. A desired deal...

In this my soliloquy I cry for help!!!

Your confession room feels so distant and I still see you sitting next to me.

My Lord! pour me to you... As I were the holy wine...

Be my orator... speak what I have in me to people that I love...

I cant speak my mind to them... the distnace is killing me.

Be close to me, as I am in you.. and together we will find an ANSWER.